the motion

so i was lying on bed this afternoon - in the past 4.5 months i have discovered the lost art of napping (where has it been all my life??) and I felt the baby move for the first time! It felt almost like a once off heartbeat at the bottom of my stummy. I waited a bit, got impatient, prodded the stummy a few times, and voila. More of those little pulses. YAY! What an incredible feeling!!

Why

why with the peeing? Ugh.
I haven't really peed any more than usual until today. But today has made up for the last 4 months. CRIKEY.
Ok, i guess it makes sense, if bambino's total length is about 18cm and I saw the teeny beginnings of a bump for the first time today only, then I guess some squashing of internal organs is inevitable. But peeing is so painful. Not literally, I just mean its annoying.
There is a bunch of stuff i could say but for fear of scaring people off this blog I will keep it to myself at this stage. Lets just say, I am starting to gain empathy for some of the ..er.. trials that the elderly must endure.

16 weeks

So I am now going on 17 weeks. YAY.
all is going well and I'm getting off lightly still. Had my scan on Monday and it was cool. And got all my blood tests back and all seems well so yay.
Still feeling good and reckon my tummy has expanded maybe. Not sure... all my clothes still fit fine, but my shape is a bit different.
The baby is about 14cm from head to bum so add in the legs and that is frikken HUGE!!!
starting to have dreams about labour and stuff. heebies.

Ok, so i think i just realised I'm going to be a mom!

I had the 12 week scan on Friday. Wow. I think i may have been a bit detached before... it was all a shock and pretty surreal before then, but on Friday I saw my baby shaking it up. At some point it went to sleep and the doc got the Band to talk to the tummy and (bless!) it woke up and moved - what looked like a wave. WOW! This thing is real, people. I may have fallen in love just a little bit.
What shocked me was how every time i laugh or touch my stomach the poor thing goes flying. The doc assured me that it is cushioned by the fluid or whatever. But still... I reckon i could have one annoyed kid emerging with all the exercise etc I get up to.



And for the uninformed among you, that is a LEG.... not a hooha!!

neeeeearly 11 weeks

Hi guys. I am doing well. Nausea has all but gone. I'm able to eat a bit more normally - ventured out from toast and apples at long last - and I'm back to exercising regularly. I haven't put on any weight yet either, which is great as far as i'm concerned. Plus - my lenten commitment (guess who was brought up catholic) is to take all my vitamins everyday. Ha! Sounds easy to you guys - you haven't seen how frikken MASSIVE and scary they are. BLEGH. Anyway, I have my 12 week scan next Friday and after that I'll be telling people. Think it will be a relief!

10 weeks going strong

hi guys
well all is well tho my blogging has been pretty useless lately. Work is insane, but what can you do?



How cute is this shirt... sis-in-law gave it for baby. Madiba, andy warhol style. Love it!

The oxymoron, the irony, the dilemma

Undoubtedly due to the fact that I can still pretty much only stomach the odd piece of toast (muesli is BITTER, people, BITTER!!!) I have actually lost weight.

This is in spite of the fact that I have (apparently) a few extra litres of blood in my system and my boobs are SERIOUSLY up a size. No, I am not pleased by this in the least. They were perfectly healthy in size before. The last thing I need is growth in that department, particularly as I can FEEL it happening. HURTS LIKE HELL!!!

The oxymoron, the irony and the dilemma of it is that this is supposedly not a good thing. Weight loss when you're knocked up is a no no. But i can't help being slightly pleased. I know, I am a total candidate for the Bad Mommy's Blog ALREADY!
Anyway, I thought I'd be one of those people who lost all control and stuffed herself senseless but it is not to be. Even the toast this morning tasted blegh. I can't actually afford to be off toast - there's nothing left after that!!

scan and muesli

So I went for another scan yesterday. All good. Saw some legs. New due date is 19 September.

I am feeling a little better today and for the first time in 5 days i was able to eat something other than toast and salty cracks!! Who knew muesli could taste so adventurous!?

Compounded symptoms

So on Thursday I started with a sore throat. I have actually been in bed since then. I am never sick. Really,... do you remember me moaning about flu and such? Actually I'm one of those really irritating people who boasts about never being sick. Well no more. The cherry tomato (apparently that's the size now?) is obviously impacting on the immune system coz I have flu. WHO HAS FLU IN SUMMER??? me, clearly. And not mild, scratchy throat and the odd sneeze flu where you stay at home and eat nice stuff and watch great movies and generally live it up. Nope. Proper, lie groaning in bed, battle to concentrate on anything, bad dreams flu. The worst sort. ESPECIALLY seeing as the weather is beautiful.

But flu has gained a whole new meaning in my... er.... state. The flu seems to make morning sickness a whole lot worse. So now not only am I stuffy headed, sore throated, blocked nose and sinused, headachey and generally misluk (miserable for the non SAns), but I'm NAUSEOUS and I can't think about eating anything or gargling or anything. And I don't know that I can really take any medication. ugh.

To the Band's credit, he is one helluva nurse. Bless.

I am off to the baby doctor chick today for blood tests and another scan.Hopefully she prescribes something POTENT for me.

Being fabulous

In the last week or so (since I've been reading up a bit on 'my condition') I have decided that for the next while at least, no... scrap that... for ever I need to be FABULOUS. If my waist is going to start THICKENING in 2 weeks time (I will not cry, I will not cry, I will not cry - I will not lament the hours and hours I've spent at bootcamp waking up at 5am to get in shape. I won't.)then I may as well make full use of my best outfits in the meantime. The poor Band. I am looking HOT but for the first time in 3 years of marriage, the mojo is on the down low. haha.. i must actually make an effort. Usually I'm chasing the guy round the house. haha. joking people. But ya... hold me to it, ok?

last week wasn't great for me, but this week I am feeling hundreds again. It's weird! No nausea. No headaches. No heartburn. Not much peeing. The awful irony is that as soon as the bad symptoms aren't there you start mini-stressing that perhaps something's happened.

Also... aren't I supposed to be super emotional? I'm not. Not at all. I'm my usual droll self. In fact I don't think I had thought about it once today until I started with this post. I'm not going to start all the "does that make me a crap mom?" crap. If I do ever start with the Mom Guilt, shoot me.

Doing well....except that infernal yawning

Seriously, it's embarassing. I sit through meeting yawning my head off!
(Ok, that's not necessarily a completely new development...)

So this weekend I told my best mate. She is now driving me mad. Telling me all this stuff like I must keep my hand on my tummy - the baby can sense it, and should I really be eating white bread? and don't tan on your stomach - you're an incubator yuo know.

Between her and my mom ("One day when you're a mother, then you'll understand" AAARGH) they are driving me insane.

They know

well my folks FINALLY foned me yesterday afternoon. There was much skrieking from my mom and my dad said all the right things, but i'm sure he must be shell shocked. I am his baby after all!

Today I told my brothers and my uber cute neice... she then told me brother - her dad - that "Caz is having a baby so that I can play with it and it can come live by us".

Sure kid, if you're willing to do nappies...

Anyway, last night was a hen's night. It began with sushi and cocktails and the guests included some of the most cunning sleuths i know. Eyebrows shot up and eyes popped out of heads when I declined ordering sushi so i had to make up some half-arsed story about over indulging in sushi over the weekend (which actually is absolutely true) and moaned about a headache (also absolutely true). But still, I could see some of the little brains ticking over time.

I have discovered this about being pregnant:
* Being knocked up makes me thirsty. I have to pee in the middle of the night a lot. It sucks!
* People hug me a WHOLE LOT MORE than I realised before my boobs decided to be UBER sore
* I feel mildly hungover most of the time
* Your life is suddenly viewed in terms of weeks instead of days, months or years
* I actually might like fruit

ah man

So i just spoke to the post office re: telegram to my folks and it will be delivered this afternoon while i'm in a meeting with Helen Zille's people.
COME ON!!!!

The whole way through the meeting I'm going to be wanting to answer my phone.

HA

Well check how I'm repeating myself in these posts. Crikey. The whole pregnancy brain thing has started already. Yesterday i walked into the men's bathroom by mistake. I've only worked here for 2 flippen years!!!!

3 days since

So it's 3 days since I found out.

Yesterday I went to see a doc. Just wanted to double triple check that I am actually pregnant and then also ask all the questions and stuff.

She did a scan! (Didn't expect that!!)
I actually could see a little heartbeat!! The doc reckons the heartbeat only started yesterday or the day before. Cool hey? The baby is 3mm long. Shame.

So that was all quite exciting.

My Band bought me a present yesterday...



How frikken cute is that?

One thing that sucks is that my folks stiiiill don't know. See I sent both sets of grandparents a telegram coz I thought it would be a cool way for them to find out. But telegrams are not what they used to be!! They take a few days to get there.

Anyway today i have a headache and feel awful. It sucks and my cheeks are all red. But that babygro makes it worth it!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH!!

So it appears that I am pregnant!!!!!

How did that happen??? No, seriously!? We've been pretty careful lately, but apparently one slipped past the goalie or something!

So this is where we are:

My period was late, but lately (haha) it always is. But I was feeling a bit off and my boobs were really sore. Monday night we took a test.

EEK, it appeared to be positive. WHAT???
Took 2 more and another the next morning. YUP!! Affirmative. Knocked up. Bun in the oven. Preggers.

Went to a doc today and she actually did a scan - I saw a minute little bambino... 3mm in length and even a HEARTBEAT. I am about 6 weeks along, due date = mid sept.

IN SHOCK.